Motherfuckers say they don’t see me smile a bunch
And ask me why, there’s just no'n for me smile about
This ain’t a gimmick like it is for Kristen Stewart
See the thing’s my youth did consist of losing
I was losing sleep, losing dreams, I was losing me
For the longest time I did not know who to be
I didn’t know who to be with either
Started seeing though who I didn’t need to be with
You know the story, everyone is there to party
But the second shit gets hard they’re departing
That was my fault too, till I got it together and learned
You’re the reflection of the ones you connect with
Spent too much of my time surrounding myself
With bad company and thus I was doubting myself
But then I vowed to myself I don’t need anyone
And when it’s said and done I’ll be proud of myself

Every day I have to justify some shit I’m doing
Who the fuck are you to judge me? Like as if you knew me
You know nothing about my past, hours I have spent
In hell, yeah I spent so many hours by myself
Spent a whole damn year barely leaving my home
So I don’t think that you know more than me about being alone
I don’t think you know more about the feeling that hope
Has forgotten you, still feel like you know me?
The struggle’s real and you know that’s true
Man, I've been places I don’t ever wanna go back to
Paralyzed by pain, almost fired and I
Had suicidal thoughts in prime of my life
I got a chip on my shoulder that’s as big as a boulder
Shit, that things is so big that I can’t fit through a door
I got a tough time hiding that times are tough
And one of your problems is that I don’t smile enough?
Bitch please

They call me cold-blooded and stone-hearted
If anything I am soul-crushingly whole-hearted
That’s right man, I hate with a passion
On the other hand I love in the same friggin’ manner
I would die for some people, they are my fam
And I would kill anybody who dares to attack ya
Ask me for a favor, I’m making it happen
Cause nothing makes me happier than making you happy
I got love for those who stuck around since way in the past
The ones who gave me a hand
I got a smile for you guys till the day of my passing
No smile for betrayers and rats
I got an ear for the peeps who gave me chance
A cold shoulder though for folks who take me for granted
Keep promises and honestly I’m stating a fact
Words of beauty don’t mean shit if you’re taking ‘em back
I got a heart that’s the size of giant's
I got a heart that reminds of a lion’s
So if you look at me and I decide not to smile back
I’m saving it for someone who rides by my side

And the moral of the story, if you’ve never been around me
Don’t judge because you don’t know anything about me